I know you may think this is all mama drama crap but its my LIFE. so if you think its drama i suggest you leave immediately. im happy for you that your life is pure bliss but this is where i vent everything, and i will.

life is shit. i don't know anymore. its kinda obvious that i've changed so much. but im a big disappoint to you. im sorry if i can't be the perfect daughter you always want. i know i didn't grow up to be an angel. and i know that i can never be. but everything i do is never enough. im sorry bout him but i cant let go. i know that if you were in my shoes, you'd feel the same way. i can't take all the pressure anymore. im really sorry and i want to things to go back the way it was before. i miss everything we did together as mother and daughter. you were my best friend and i miss you a lot. i love you, mummy.

i never knew it would be possible to hate your own blood. but i'll say it here. I HATE YOU S*******. Thanks a lot for ruining my life. "That's what sisters are for."??? YEAH RIGHT. That's all shit, little girl. That's right, LITTLE. you're only 12 so get out of my 14 year old life and leave me alone. stop getting me into trouble and mind your own business. stop sending him messages cos you're only gona hurt him. ugh.

there was a point in time when i felt that suicide was stupid. but now it looks like the only way to free myself.

i don't know anymore. i now know happily ever afters never did exist.